ok my fiance and I were talking about getting married since last Dec, so this year we got engaged in Jan (not ring) and He even said lets do it in March..so as I was trying to plan we realized that..march was too soon and I didnt have enought time order a dress or book anything and most places asked doposits so we ralized we couldnt do it..at this point i was under the impression that we could afford a wedding..he made go to halls and hotels…and caterers and all that..I almost booked a photographer..but i guess he didnt realized how much this was going to cost..and then he tells me that march was too soon that august is better..so i was ok with that..but now he tells me that we cant afford it (even though we cut guest and cust in half) because he just spent over 10k on my E.ring and wedding band…but Hes the one that wanted me to get platinum and lots of little diamonds..but he says its ok cos it’ll last forever..and a wedding or a dress wont…?
anyway today he told me we should get married next year so we’ll ahve more money and time to plan and i dont have to rush order my dress..and all that..and I think it makes sense and I understand that..but i had to change dates so many times and venues and plans and colours that i dont if i want a wedding anymore..I think im getting very impatient but i have to say we have been dating for 7.5 years and he just brought up marriage last year (after i gavehim 1000s of hints)..so iv been waiting long time for this..and i already told my whole family…they are even making travelling plans to be here in august..(we live in Canada)…
so am i being a child and unreasonable for wanting a wedding this year? may2010 seems so fat away.. i dont really want to wait any more..I have been with this man since i was 20 years old…i know hes commited but how do I accept this..am i wrong for being upset? I just need someone to tell me to stay calm because im going to loose it and i dont want to argue with him..

thanks..
ok, I dont think i put this earlier but we are going 50/50 and we are just inviting 45 ppl max..I accept things but he keeps bring up dates and then later hes like nop we cant..let move it..thats was upseting..thanks for waking me up!